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Embodied Healing

    Some of you might wonder what is intuitive healing? What does that even mean? What would coaching even address? That answer is different for everyone but I would like to share an example of something I’m noticing for me. 

    Today I had an event and I was going for a certain look so I needed to get new pants. I ran to the local store to grab a pair on my way to meet friends. I didn’t have a whole lot of time and to be honest, I pretty much only wear leggings so it had been a hot minute since I bought actual pants. 

    I wandered the aisles also looking for a top to match and then went to the pants section. I found the color I needed and went right to a size 16. I looked at the different cuts and for the look I was going for I needed to step way out side my comfort zone. I found them and didn’t even bother to pick up a 14. I headed right to the dressing room to try on the 2 pair I was deciding between. As I wiggled my body into them I was smirking. The vision for this costume was coming together and the event was going to be so fun. 

    I texted the picture to the friend I was meeting and we both loved how they would be for the event. I found a few other things and made my way to the register. As I left the store carrying my items I was giggling. 

    I don’t think I can ever remember a time where I was HAPPY leaving a dressing room. The first time I thought to myself I want to be comfortable and just went for the right size without being upset. The first time I accepted where I was and did not beat myself up for gaining weight or trying to squeeze into a smaller size and be uncomfortable. 

    As a 14/16 (ish because we know sizing is a joke) I’m too fat for the skinny people and too skinny for the fat people. I might be “average” but I don’t feel like I fit. Being a woman in our society means people have been placing their opinions on my body for as long as I can remember. The first time I was told I was overweight I was 10. I was at an annual exam and my pediatrician told me I was obese. I’ve had family tell me I was getting fat. I’ve had strangers ask me when I was due. 

    Today none of that mattered. I have been working hard to address some of those wounds and I could feel it differently in my system today. The event I was at required photos and there were some I like better than others, but I participated in them. I LAUGED. Like really, really laughed. And, I was mostly (they were really not my usual style) comfortable. 

    This is an example of healing. Unlearning the crap the world places on us and then we place on ourselves. Choosing comfort and not worrying about the number on the tag. Participating in photos and having fun with it. While on my walk this morning I recoded a video and forgot to share it. I said I wanted to bring more joy into my life. More silly. More play. Expansive fun energy. I was able to do that with this event in the most beautiful way. I can’t wait to be able to share the pictures. 




 

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